Florists and Scuba and Lists, Oh My!

Oh. My. Goodness.

I don't even have the energy to put together a mildly witty post about much of anything, and also a new episode of Top Chef is on, so here you go, people.

1. Thank you to everyone who organized, attended, sent gifts to, and otherwise participated in my three bridal showers. I had a fantastic time meeting some new people, getting to know people I've already had the pleasure of meeting, eating wonderful food, and being showered with endless generosity of spirit, and gifts. Future Husband is especially pleased with the "being showered with gifts" part. :)

2. I have begun packing to move, because once I depart for the Wedding Location in September, I will not return until post-wedding. Did you know that I have three times as many boxes of books than I do anything else? Including clothes? and this is after taking about 40 books to donate. Obsessed much?

3. I have made a list (yes, another list) of everything I need to do in the next month. Multiple Pages are involved. and I am already tired. help. me. someone fire up the coffee maker!

4. I am starting Scuba diving lessons next week. Part of me is a little intimidated. I'm always intimidated by trying something new. The other part of me is reassured knowing that this is the most laid-back sport ever. You are supposed to breathe slow, swim slow, relax, use the buddy system (like in summer camp)... SCORE. I liked summer camp. I can do this.

5. Does it make me wierd that I am not yet bridezilla? At least, I don't think I am...? So far I am very much, "okay, sure, let's figure it out" when things don't go my way regarding The Wedding. People are telling me that's wierd. Maybe I'm just too tired. or maybe it's because at the end of the day, I know everything will be wonderful-even if I don't have flame calla lillies in each centerpiece, even if I don't have time to make a seating chart and people get to sit with whomever (whoever? whosoever? whatever.) they want, even if the stripes in the frosting on the cake aren't perfectly straight.

6. I finally had my, as Oprah would say, "Aha!" moment about my wedding. The day Future Husband proposed was perfect. But between work, school, getting ready to move, etc., Wedding Planning had felt more like "planning just another event that happens to be my own wedding" than it has "Planning MY Wedidng!" ... until we met with the pianist. Something happened. She was playing a few different song options for the Prelude and Processional... and then she landed on "The One." The perfect song, the one that I AM WALKING DOWN THE AISLE TO. and it all just became so real for me in that moment; it was like my own wedding walked up and smacked me in the face, yelling "LIFETIME COMMITMENT, WEDDING RINGS, REST OF YOUR LIFE, I DO!" I know this all sounds like a very aggressive experience, and it was. But in the best possible way. All along I didn't feel connected to my own wedding, and then BAM. All at once. I choked up, my eyes welled up, my breath caught in my chest, my head spun, and I saw myself walking down the aisle, to that song, in my dress, towards Future Husband, and forever. I think people may have been asking my questions, but I had to take a moment and collect myself before I could speak. My own wedding made me speechless. Since then, I am still just as busy and tired, but I feel fully immersed in my own wedding, I am embracing my wedding planning experience, and I can't wait!

7. In cleaning out stuff and packing, I found my brownie girl scout vest, and I can't believe I was ever that small. or motivated to sell cookies.

8. now I kind of want some cookies.

9. can I pay someone to bring me some cookies? like boomchunkas from Cherry Republic? please?

10. I think what I need most right now is a walk down the street I lived on in Maryland in crisp autumn weather, wearing a comfy coat, and then get to watch the sun set while swinging at the playground across the street from my old house. The house was on a big hill in a row with other houses, and I always felt like if I listened hard enough, I could hear the cheers at the football games at the local high school, and that since we lived at the top of the hill, that we were closest to the sky and got to see the airplanes flying overhead just a little more clearly than anyone else.

That sounds perfect.

and a cookie.